top of page
Search
lukeswright

Hyperawareness or Ignorance is Bliss?

I’ve been treading this path for around fifteen years or so, now. It first began with yoga on the WiiFit, which quickly developed into attending a class. I was then introduced to mediumship, and the medium further introduced me to meditation, and so the story unfolded…


Fast forward to almost sixteen years later, and here I am, running my own wellbeing centre. Through my chosen wellbeing and spiritual practices, my beliefs and my curious mind, I’m totally immersed in a depth of hyperawareness, every day.


💛 Awareness of my body

💛 Awareness of my mindset

💛 Awareness of my emotional state

💛 Awareness of my spiritual connection

💛 Awareness of my kids

💛 Awareness of those I love

💛 Awareness of those I don’t

💛 Awareness of human behaviour

💛 Awareness of the world around me

💛 Awareness of the world we live in

💛 Awareness of the bigger picture


It’s exhausting.


But, I’m also aware of how oblivious I was for the first 24 years of my life. I was living my life with almost zero awareness. My body, mind, emotions and spirit had no conscious connection between them, and I simply lived by doing as I was told.


And in many respects, this level of ignorance was bliss. I often grieve for the days when I could fall asleep without thinking, where I could escape with alcohol, where I could numb dis-ease with medication, where I could eat whatever I wanted and not consider the consequences, where I took people for face value, and where the ‘rules’ felt safe.


But I can no longer do these things. I’m too aware, I know too much. And some days, it drives me to absolute insanity.


😭 I wish other people’s ignorance didn’t make me so angry

😭 I wish I didn’t feel the dis-ease in my body every day

😭 I wish I didn’t obsess over my future and the future of humanity

😭 I wish I didn’t feel challenged by every rule, policy, law and system

😭 I wish I wasn’t so attached to my morals and values that I constantly self-sabotage in the name of integrity

😭 I wish I wasn’t so mad at the world all the time!


However, if I wasn’t all these things, I wouldn’t be me. I wouldn’t be living my truth. I wouldn’t be fulfilling my dreams. And I wouldn’t be happy.


For the first 24 years, I wasn’t happy. I didn’t love myself. And I didn’t even notice. At least now, my awareness allows me to know when I’m happy and when I’m not.


So here’s my new goal…how can I get comfortable with my hyperawareness? How can I not let it overwhelm me? How can I use it as my super power?


Luke, 3.0

0 views0 comments

Recent Posts

See All

Some days, I just hate people.

Day by day, I’m finding myself increasingly more frustrated by human behaviour. Is it me, or does it feel like general attitudes,...

I’ve been doing a lot of worrying lately

Do you ever get those periods where things just feel like doom and gloom? I’ve been struggling to see the wood through the trees, and...

My energy has changed

I recently wrote about being on the struggle bus. And to my absolute, genuine surprise, some incredible human beings came forward with...

Comments


bottom of page