I’m feeling heavy right now

The world is heavy, and it’s weighing on me. I go to bed at night worrying about my future, the future of my family and the future of my children.

I lose hours and days wondering what I can do about it. If there’s anything I can even do at all?

Perhaps humanity is just a lost cause?

I also feel heavy about my business and finances. Is it even possible to stay open? Am I just kidding myself trying to be self-employed? Am I selfishly stealing from my family by doing so?

I’m also feeling physically heavy. I’m nearing back to 12 stone, which is too much for my petit frame. I can’t stop comfort eating. And I have no inclination to do anything about it.

But I love myself anyway.

💛 I love that I care enough about the world to be bothered.

💛 I love that I care enough about my family to wonder if I’m doing the right thing.

💛 I love that I want my children’s future to be bright.

💛 I love that I’ve created a business for people and goodness.

💛 I love that I’ve been selfless enough to sacrifice many personal luxuries to ensure the good that I do is sustainable for all who benefit from it.

💛 I even love that I’m a bit chubby, because honestly I don’t even find ripped men attractive. I’m all about the Dad bod!

So with all this heaviness I’m feeling…I’m remembering that I love myself anyway. And that I’ve done a shit lot of work to learn to feel this way. And in some small way, it’s lightening the load.

What are you doing today to lighten your heaviness today?